Sorry

Yeah, I know I said I was going to be at church yesterday then I wasn't. Please believe me when I say I desperately needed the extra sleep. I pretty much just slept through my alarm. I haven't been sleeping much lately due to work and just generally not being able to sleep. It sucks. I'm getting worn out and I'm afraid if I don't start getting more sleep I'm going to get sick again.

So anyway, what's going on in my world...not much. Updating my journal is getting depressing because I never do anything anymore. But I believe I've finally decided to do something about it. I was sitting in my room last night talking to Bianca and I suddenly decided to get my guitar out and start playing. That's the first time I've done that in several months. It made me realize how much I missed it. So yeah, I really want to get back to playing again. I want to get better at it. So I can be a rock star. ;)

Anyway, after playing guitar for a while I came to a bit of a realization. I've been in this whole, "I'm finding myself" frame of mind for the last few months. The weird thing is, I knew who I was. I lost myself sometime around June or July this year. I'm still not totally sure what happened, but it happened nonetheless. I think satan used that to his full advantage. I was still holding onto a bit of my life up until about November and then it all went out the window. I've turned into this boring, insomniac, workaholic drone, and all of you should know that's not who I am. Once I finally figured this out, I realized that I'm the only person that can do something about it. I've been telling myself that as soon as I go full time at the base I can get back to all the things I've left behind, but that's crap. There's no reason I can't work on it now. I may not be able to do everything, but I can at least get back to my normal self again. So that's my challenge or New Year's resolution or whatever you want to call it.

So yeah, that's what's going on in my head right now. I'm gonna get back to "work."

GO BUCKS!

God bless!

Pepto