Another Update

Ok, so I have said it before, but I will say it again. I love my job. I'm sitting here eating popcorn and watching Christmas Vacation...at work. But don't worry...I have plenty of work to do. I'm just taking a brief break to journal. So in response to some of your comments...there really is no side to be taken on the whole situation of lunch on Sunday. As I said...I completely understand why she was upset...and if I were in her shoes, I'm sure I'd be pretty upset about it as well, but she did say that she was glad that we are getting to know each other. So it's all good. It's done and over with.

Now...about my whole feelings on wanting to find someone, etc. etc. I'm realizing that a lot of it has to do with 2 things: the crappy conversation I had with my dad and the fact that Christmas is just 5 days away. It's really starting to set in that my family is not going to be together for Christmas nor will it ever be until my family consists of my husband and kids. I don't know if any of you have ever really experienced this...but it sucks. Big time. I just want so badly to have someone to share the experience with this Christmas, but I really don't. Granted, I will get to spend Christmas with my mom as well as the Durbins which is the only family I really have now...it's different. I don't know...to expect to have someone to be with this Christmas is COMPLETELY unrealistic and irrational and it won't happen, but it's just how I feel. Maybe he'll walk into my life by next Christmas. It's hard to say.

There seems to be a general consesus among those close to me that I have more control over my relationship status than I think I do. I don't get it. It's not that I'm turning down dates or anything...nobody has even asked me out on a date...not even a relationship...in over 4 years now. Don't get me wrong...I've had a few dates, but they were all either set up or I asked. You can guess how those ended up. So I don't see where I have any control over the situation, but if you all can...please enlighten me.

I know this post seems like a downer, but I'm doing fine...really. Yeah, I'm hurtin a bit with the whole family thing, but overall...I'm still doing well, and still praising the Lord for what I do have. Oh...and on a more positive note...I'm kinda sorta being promoted at work. I'm not getting a raise but I am getting more responsibity and quite possible some more hours. I'll be doing what's called Inventory Control. I have a desk and everything. It's not official but the Cool Boss told me that I'll probably be doing a lot of it since the person they hired this past quarter quit. So yay!!! Praise the Lord. Speaking of work...I need to get back to that. I hope you all have a wonderful day, and I'll see most of you at rehearsal tonight.

God bless!

Pepto