Perspective

There is a song by Kutless called "Perspectives." A line in the chorus says, "Sometimes freedom is just simply another perspective away." I realize more and more as I get older just how true that is. I think our own happiness has more to do with the perspective we have on our life than what our life actually is.

Why am I talking about this? You might ask. Well...I stated in my previous journal that I don't understand why everyone seems to think I have so much control over my relationship status. Well...I do now. After a brief chat with Mac and Cheese, some more talking to PC and reading a 200 page book called, "Marriable" in one sitting (I'm dead serious. I didn't get up off the couch at all until I finished it.), I finally realized that I do give off this major "Unavailable" vibe, and it's my own fault. I've had this attitude that I shouldn't get involved in a relationship until I get to seminary or wherever it is I'm going. All along it made perfect sense to me, but in the last couple of days, it really hasn't made sense at all. If God has Mr. Right in store for me in the next eight months, who am I to prevent that from happening? Yeah, it may cause some changes in my plans for the future and it may turn into a long distance relationship for a while, but so what. How can I know if it would work if I don't even let myself get close to anyone. So, I've decided that should the opportunity arise, I will go for it. By go for it, I mean I may show signs of being interested but I'm still gonna let him chase me because that's just how men and women were designed. In short...I have a new perspective on dating now.

So here's a bit of a fun fact that I thought you ladies would like to hear about. I know it put "a little extra hitch in my giddy-up" in the words of Larry the Cable Guy. Wednesday afternoon, I took Roomiestar over to the base to see PC because I have access to get on base and she doesn't. In case y'all didn't know, he checks IDs at the gate. So we came through the gate and the airman that he was working with ended up checking my ID, but then we pulled through and stopped to at least say hi to PC and he asked us if we would go get them some food. Roomiestar said yes...even though I was the one driving, but I would have done it anyway. So we ran to Wendy's to get them some food and went to take it to them. Once again the airman stopped us and he was like, "You're coming through again?" So we responded with, "Yeah because we're bringing you food." So anyway, we pull through and give the food to PC while I successfully embarrass Roomiestar 0:) then we go out on our way. Well...I later found out from PC that soon after we drove away, the airman he was working with started asking about us. So PC told him that Roomiestar was his girlfriend and I was her best friend and what we were doing there, etc. Well, apparantly this airman kept asking about me and talking about me for the rest of their shift which was another 5 1/2 HOURS!! He even asked if PC would set us up for a double date. So when PC was telling me all this, I was like...."So....what happened?" and he said that they talked about spirituality and religion briefly and the airman said that he is more "spiritual than religous." But then PC said that he really didn't think this was the kind of guy I would want to get involved with because of some other stuff he said earlier in the day. So he was looking out for me because he knows that if I would get hurt that it would eventually come back to him.

So yeah...that was a big confidence boost. Nothing will ever come of it, but it's good to know my smile can make some stranger talk about me for almost 6 hours. After that conversation, PC also said that he is "still hopeful" that Bowler and I will get together. I thought that was interesting. But I'm not going to press the issue. I don't see anything happening right now for a lot of reasons, but you never know. But I told Roomiestar to have PC invite Bowler over for Christmas just because I wouldn't want the poor guy to spend Christmas alone. So I'll let you all know if that happens.

Well, I don't know if I'll be updating again before Christmas so I hope you all have a great one! I'll be seeing y'all soon. Enjoy the next couple of days and try to not stress out. Love ya sistahs!!God bless!!!

Pepto