Apologies

Yes, it has been a very long time. I have committed my usual sin of procrastinating which has caused me to be extremely busy over the last few weeks getting my work done. In doing so, I have neglected my Journal Pals, and I'm sorry. Please forgive me.

So yeah, school stuff has been really hectic lately, but my grades have been fine even though I put everything off till the last minute. Praise the Lord! I've been really bad at returning phone calls, e-mails, and the like simply because I haven't really even had time to breathe. But everything is settling down now. I have one final tomorrow and then I'm done until next Monday. Some break, huh? Summer quarter will be much easier since I only have one class at a time and I'll never work past 5 pm as opposed to 7 or 8 pm every night. I'm excited about summer. I'm excited about moving into our new apartment although I'm not excited about the costs. It turns out that there was a problem with my Financial Aid, and it has not gone through yet, so I had to pay my first installment of nearly $800 on Monday. So please please be praying that my Aid goes through very soon so I can get some, if not all of that money back and avoid having to pay the next installment. So because of that beefy payment, it's going to make paying the deposit, first month's rent, start up costs for utilities, and renting a U-haul very difficult to do in the next two weeks. So I would really really appreciate some prayers there.

Although I am excited about the new changes of moving and graduating and what not, it is kinda bittersweet. Friends are moving onto different paths. My friend Writer left on Saturday. She's going to grad school in Boston in the fall, so I won't be seeing much of her. Homeslice is moving to Kentucky with her parents. I must say that although I've had my moments with her over the last year and a half, I'm really really going to miss her. This place won't be the same without her. Then there's the friends that I've made recently, most of which are younger. So a lot of them are going home for the summer, but I'll see them again in the Fall, so that's not so bad.

As far as Toolman...the real reason everyone reads. Well, I've given up. I thought things were going well and progressing, but apparently I was wrong. Everything has seemed to come to a screeching halt. Now, maybe it is because he's so busy with finals and stuff, but due to the drasticness of the change, I find that hard to believe. He didn't sit with me at Real Life for the first time since the week I was late (about 7 weeks ago) although he did sit behind me. Then afterwards, I turned around and he said, "I'm gonna go help them tear stuff down," which he always does after Real Life, but then when he's done he always comes to find me and rides with me to happy hour wherever it is. This time, he just disappeared. I had been waiting for like 20 minutes, then I realized that they were all done tearing stuff down, and he was nowhere to be found. I went on to Happy Hour by myself, and found out from a friend of his that he had programming to do. So then, I saw him online Sunday night and I messaged him to tell him about Homeslice's grad party. About 15 seconds after I messaged him, he signed off, and I haven't heard from him since even though I've seen him online quite a bit.

So there it is. I start gaining a little bit of confidence for a change...start having faith that something good might actually happen to me and look at what happens. Yeah, I know I'm throwing myself a bit of a pity party, but I feel entitled to a small one. I'm sure I'll get over it. I always do. I have to. That's the way life goes. So sorry to get everyone's hopes up over the last couple of months just to let you down, but hey...welcome to my world.

In other more important and much happier news...my congratulations and prayers go out to HBM, Elvis, and Pita Pocket!! I'm so excited for them!! Yay!!!

I must be going. I need to get some sleep if I expect to do any good on my last exam. Goodnight y'all.

Pepto