Ready to run

I'm not going to lie to y'all. I'm dying to get out of here. I don't want to be here anymore. When I say "here" I'm primarily talking about my apartment, but also just the Dayton area in general. I keep telling everyone that I'm running out of reasons to say here. It's true. I'm out of school, so that isn't keeping me here. My job sucks, so that's not keeping me here. The two main things left that have a hold on me are friends and church. Well, more of my friends seem to be leaving every few months or having kids or getting married or whatever. And church...well, there's nothing about it that I want to leave, but maybe this transition time would be a good time to go. I don't know. I'm just not happy here anymore, and I haven't been for quite a while. There's just been a few things over the last couple weeks that keep pushing me closer and closer to the edge. Unfortunatly, I can't just leave. My lease runs until June. So I guess I just have to suck it up and find places to be around here where I'm not so miserable.

So I'm really trying to approach this situation with prayer and a lot of caution. I don't want to do anything drastic that will put me into a hole. A hole being some difficult position that I have to fight to get out of. I wish I could just go right now and take the people that I want to take with me, but it just can't happen. I just feel like I'm stuck. All around. Stuck here in Dayton. Stuck a job I don't like. Stuck in financial distress. Just stuck. I can't move.

I went to Family Christian today for the first time in forever. I bought a book called "Everything Twenties" that gives advice on how to go about doing a lot of stuff that happens in your twenties: graduating college, looking for a job, moving, etc. etc. So we'll see. I haven't read a book like that in a while, but it just seemed to be yelling my name when I saw it. So I splurged and got it.

Yeah, I'm kinda scatterbrained and distracted. Sorry. Well, I'm going to be going. I'm gonna finish watching 7th Heaven and go to bed relatively early. I'm getting up to have breakfast with a couple of friends then I'm going to help HBM and Elvis load up their moving truck, and say goodbye. :( I'm gonna miss them.

That's it for now. Toodles y'all.

Pepto