A bittersweet ending

So here I sit in my bedroom in the Roadhouse for the last night ever. It's kinda weird, and definitely a bittersweet ordeal. I have a lot of great memories in this house, but I've also been ready to get out of this house for the last few months. I'll never forget all the good memories here (especially the ones on video), but I am looking forward to our new apartment, a partially new set of roommates, and a whole slew of good memories yet to be experienced.

My apologies again for taking so long to update, but I've been busy non-stop since I last wrote. I've just been going from one thing to another and packing in between. I haven't been sleeping well at all nor have I been eating well. I'm stressed and stretched to the extreme. I'm emotional. I'm exhausted. I finally reached my breaking point today, and I feel bad for those who were in my path. I misunderstood something, and for some reason it just sparked an emotional bonfire. For those of you who were there, I'm really sorry that I just walked out on you. I hope you can understand that I'm really just under a lot of crap right now. It was good that I walked out when I did though, because I lost it once I got in the car and started to drive away. The person that was somewhat responsible (although it really wasn't his fault) called tonight to apologize which made me feel much better. If any of the rest of you felt like I was mad at you or anything, I'm sorry.

The last week has been a time of discoveries, disappointments, pride, and sadness. I've seen a different side of people, some good, some bad. Homeslice is now gone. Everytime I really think about it, it brings tears to my eyes. Even with all the rough times we had, she was still a good friend to me, and I already miss having her around, but I am very thankful that I got to enjoy the last couple of months with her here, and I was very proud to be able to be there to see her get her diploma. Blue Jacket and I have bonded. Monday night we just sat in my car talking for at least an hour or so. It was nice to have someone to share all this stuff with again. It's been awhile since I've felt close enough to someone to really let go and just talk about things. The two of us have spent the last two days packing...tons of fun. Bianca is about to dive into this mess, but I think it will be a good experience. She seems to be enjoying Bethany which is awesome. I love it when other people share the love. Then there's our brand new fourth roommate whom I shall call Army Girl. She just called yesterday (I had sent her a message about a week ago) to tell us that she wanted to live with us. It might not be until July, but it's much better than nothing at all.

So this time of transition is craziness. Saying hello to new people, and saying goodbye to old friends. Finishing my art classes, and working towards admission to Grad School, and moving into a new apartment.

I must ask for your prayers. We're moving out tomorrow, and it's going to be crazy. We have a few guys that have offered to help us in the evening, but not very many. So for a while, it's going to be pretty much just me, Blue Jacket, and Bianca loading up an entire house full of stuff. Homeslice is already in Kentucky and others just have their own lives to tend to, I guess. So just pray that we can get it all accomplished but still be able to get some rest, and pray also that we don't get hurt, and I don't wreck the U-Haul.

I know this was really scatter-brained, but that's how I've been this week. I hope all is well with all of you. I'll have a hard time keeping up with ya, because we might not have internet until early next week or so.

God bless.

Pepto