Good day

So yeah...worship this morning rocked my socks. It was awesome. I asked my grandma what she thought about it and she said she thought it was great...she said it's the same God she always sees at home. So that was cool. The sermon was awesome too. I must give some props to preacher, he's been doing quite well lately. Some of the stuff he said hit close to home and was kinda difficult to hear, but it was necessary. My dad said the same thing in fact he said, "he kinda beat me over the head," but he liked it nonetheless.

After the service we went to Cracker Barrel for lunch...it was quite a long wait, but man their food is GOOOOOOD. It was fun just chattin with them and everything. Both of my parents said that they really felt like everyone at Bethany genuinely care about people and my mom said she can tell that everyone really cares about me a lot and that's important to her. So yay for my wonderful church family. I love y'all! Then we were all getting ready to leave. My dad looked at me nearly in tears and said that he was really proud of me and he promised he'd take care of my mom, so I said, "You better." It didn't really hit me until I was huggin my mom goodbye that I won't see them again for quite a while because they'll be about 500 miles away in North Carolina. My mom started crying and I told her not to worry and she said, "I know. You have a lot of good friends and a lot of people here that care about you." So we said our goodbyes and they were on their way. It's still going to be weird on those rare occasions that I may want to see them and I can't, but I'll be fine.

So a lot of you have been asking about the seminary situation. I can tell you that it's up in the air. I still haven't completely finished the application process. Plus...due to recent events there's a chance that I may not go even if I am accepted. A lot of people have been telling me that maybe I should stay here. I've considered it...but at least two people for sure have told me to look into Cincinnati Bible School and several others have said that I shouldn't leave. Beef said tonight that quite often when you here the same thing from several different people it's the Holy Spirit talking. So I don't know...we'll see. Wherever God wants me, that's where I'll go. I'd appreciate it if y'all would keep that in your prayers.

BTW, my birthday isn't till March 26th...we still have a while. I apologize to those of you who didn't get to enjoy my cupcakes. I'll make some for ya sometime...except for maybe Josy. Let's face it...I don't think they'd make the trip. I'm so sorry...but I can send you the recipe for some of them. Ok, well I'm gonna get off of here and look into CBS and read some more of Prince Caspian and such. I got a busy week ahead of me, but nothing I won't survive. Peace out!

God bless!

Pepto

Can't sleep...too excited

Ok, so today was a pretty awesome day. I got up and cleaned my room while watching The Little Mermaid...classic movie. Then I spent just a little time trying to teach Blue Jacket how to play guitar because she's been asking me to for a while. She's a pretty good student...her biggest problem so far is learning how to strum which is just one of those things that you have to practice to get it. That was fun. Then I made some cupcakes. I am so sick of eating cupcakes...for real, but everyone seemed to like them, so that's cool. I have to take some to work sometime because everyone told me I had to when I got my Cupcake cookbook.

Anyway...I kinda got in a bit of a time crunch and had to rush to get all of my stuff together to get to the worship retreat wich was GREAT by the way. I love talking about our philosophies and why we do what we do. It was also really cool to hear the reasons why we're going to two services and what each service will be like. I've decided I want to go to the heritage service sometime just to see Elvis in a suit. Nah...really I probably will go from time to time. Believe it or not, I enjoy a lot of the old hymns. We went over a lot of music theory stuff. Most of it was over my head, but some of it I actually understood and it helped me understand what some of those crazy chords on my charts are. I understood enough to want to learn more. So I REALLY want to work on learning that stuff, but it will be hard to find the time in my schedule. I'm gonna try really hard though. I'm tired of not knowing what I'm doing half the time. Rehearsal rocked. I am so pumped up about tomorrow's service. Add in the fact that both of my parents and my grandma are going to be there...I'm even more excited. I'm a little worried about how grandma will handle it because she's definitely a traditionalist and so is my dad...but oh well. I know I'll be worshipping God and that's all that really matters.

After rehearsal I went to dinner with mom, dad, and grandma at Red Robin...mmmmmm Whiskey River BBQ Chicken....yummmm. It was good. Plus my parents gave me an early birthday present...two tickets to see Michael Buble in Cincinnati!!! I was suprised...I didn't even know he was going to be there. So that's exciting. The show is Friday March 10th. After dinner, we came back here so my dad and grandma could see some of my artwork because they hadn't seen any of it. BTW, I will try to get some pictures of them on here sometime...whenever I figure out how to put pictures on this thing.

So yeah, I've just been sittin at my computer listening to songs, downloading songs, building playlists for my MP3 player and whatnot. I think I'm going to hop into bed soon and start reading Prince Caspian, the 4th book in the Chronicles of Narnia series. Woohoo!

I will see most of you in the morning!!

God bless!

Pepto

Late night Caffeine buzz

Yeah...so It's almost one and I'm still WIDE awake...I must give thanks to HBM and Elvis for providing me with enough caffiene to finish my school work and then some. I just finished the last thing I needed to do for tomorrow. (WOOHOO) A friend of mine told me when I first went into art to NEVER take 3 studio classes at once. I completley understand why she said it now. This week has just been crazy. I feel like I've been spending most of the week catching up but I was never really behind. Yesterday wasn't too bad because I was a bit of a bum in the morning and then I just relaxed and watched American Idol tonight, but I did that knowing that I was only making today a little more hectic than it really needed to be. That's ok though. I survived and I got everything done. So in addition to having a bunch of stuff to turn in for classes this week, I also worked about 23 hours which is 9 more than usual. 23 hours of work plus 27 hours in class plus at least 12 hours outside of class for homework equals 62 hours. That's quite a bit, but I'm stoked that I've survived it. Yay for staying focused!! Just pray that I can stay that way for the next 7 weeks.

Anyway...among all my working and doing stuff for school today, I went to CAYAC which rocked, as usual. I really wish other people would come, but it is still nice getting the personal attention. We talked about not having a significant other and why it shouldn't make you feel incomplete...only God can complete you...God's timing is different from ours...I Corinthians 7:32-35...etc. It was good. It hasn't really been too much of a struggle for me this week because I've been so busy which has helped me realize that I just don't have time to date someone right now, and i'm perfectly fine with that. After we finished our study, we just hung out and watched American Idol together. I love hanging out with them so much they're like the older brother/sister that I've always wanted. Anyway...they gave me Mountain Dew which is why I'm still awake, but that's ok because I had to go to campus to print my zinc plate then I got a 99 cent Junior Bacon Cheeseburger from Wendy's which is how it should be. No more of this 1.29 crap. Then I drew my drawing for my next zinc plate in printmaking. It's a drawing of Aslan...like the close up of his face on all the posters. If I do it right, I think it will be really cool.

Random thought that I wanted to share with y'all when I thought it this morning. I really hate it when the toilet seat is cold, don't you? It's just so unpleasant. Speaking of bathrooms...Funny Fingers talked about how she keeps a Bible in the bathroom because that's one place she knows she has to go during the day and sometimes it's hard to find the time to read it otherwise because she's so busy. I found myself sitting in the bathroom the other day wishing I had something to read, so I put one of my Bibles in there this evening. We'll see if it works.

Ok, well I'm gonna go snuggle under my blankies and try reading a bit until I'm tired enough to sleep. I got another long day tomorrow...longer than usual because I have to work during what would normally be my dinner time between class and Real Life. Then I have to be at work at 9 am Friday...BLAH! Anyway, I hope y'all are doing well. Peace out.

God bless!

Pepto

Craziness

Yeah, life has been crazy lately. So as most of you realized, my parents were not at church on Sunday. My dad called that morning and said that they had been up most of the night talking and they didn't feel comfortable driving. That's ok though. I had a chance to talk to my dad on the phone yesterday during one my breaks and it was quite a conversation. I honestly believe that he is a changed man. He's taking the blame for all the problems that there have been between him and my mom all these years. He told me that he understood why I said the things I said when I talked to him in December and that I should smack him for reacting the way he did. He said that he really wants to go to church...he even yelled at my mom for cussing. He has NEVER done any of those things or anything like it. I had to get off the phone though because I had to work, so they called later and asked if I had time to go out to dinner with them, so they drove up here from Cincinnati just to have dinner with me and we ended up talking for almost 2 1/2 hours. They've decided that they're moving to North Carolina like Sunday afternoon or Monday morning. They were going to leave this week but I asked if they would wait so they could come to church next week and they said yes. They're also going to bring my grandma (my dad's mom). So that will be really cool. By the way, if anyone needs a couch, or has a place to store a queen size bed, please let me know. The couch would be all yours and it would be free. The bed...I will probably take it whenever I move out of here, but I don't have anywhere to put it right now. So yeah...God's been doing some pretty amazing stuff in my family. It's still pretty hard to believe and I'm still even just a little skeptical about it, but I have faith that this time is different.

Aside from that life has been crazy still. I have had so much work to do it's rediculous...I haven't even procrastinated. I've been staying on top of things, but it's crunch time this week. Week 3 of the quarter is always tough because I inevitably have a bunch of stuff due at the same time. Which is what's been happening. I said before that I spent a whole bunch of time at the CAC over the weekend. I've been doing some stuff at home too. Yeah, it's just crazy. I'm looking forward to this weekend, but it will be a pretty busy one. Yeah, my mind is wandering off...I think it's because of this crazy chick named Rhonetta on American Idol. Funny stuff. I love it when people have such fat egos on this show. She's going to "set a city on fire." Wow...interesting. Yeah, so I'm gonna get off here and finish watching AI. I hope all is well with everyone. I love ya ladies!!

God bless!

Pepto

WARNING

Ok, so it's time I finally tell you what's happened with my dad...and my mom. To put it bluntly...they're getting back together. I thought it would be a good idea for me to tell y'all since they'll be at church together tomorrow. I know you may think that I should be happy and you're wondering why I didn't just tell you when it happened, but it's kinda hard for me to believe. After everything that has happened...some of you know the specifics, some of you don't, it's just hard to deal with such a sudden turn of events. I'm really skeptical about the whole thing. It just seems really hard to just look past everything that was done and said between them over the last three months. BUT...they swear that it will be different time. I believe them to an extent. They say they're getting out of Portsmouth which I have thought for a long time was what they needed to do. They want to renew their vows and they want to do it at Bethany. So there you go. Now you know. So when you see them there tomorrow, together, try not to freak out too much. It'll be hard enough for me to not freak out myself.

So anyway, in other news...I've been really busy doing stuff for school even thought it's a weekend. I've spent just as much time at the CAC over the weekend as I do during the week. It kinda stinks, but at least I'm staying on top of my work. I still have to spend even more time there tomorrow and I have some stuff that I need to accomplish that I can work on at home or at Women's group. I'm definitely looking forward to it and it will be much needed tomorrow night. Besides, I'm sure you're all going to wonder what the heck is going on with my parents and such.


OK, well I'm gonna chill out and relax for a bit while watching a movie. I hope you all have a wonderful night and I will see y'all in the morning.

God bless!

Pepto

My testimony

Ok, here it is. It will probably be a pretty condensed version.

I was not raised going to church. In fact, my family couldn't even be classified as "cheasters" (people who only go to church for Christmas and Easter). I went to church with my grandma once every couple of years, but that was about it. When I was 10, my best friend Katie told me about Jesus one day on the swings at recess. She told me that if I would die without him in my heart that I wouldn't have anything but if I accepted him, I would have everything. So I did...and that was it. I didn't start going to church or reading the Bible or anything. I went to events at Katie's church from time to time but that was the extent of it. I always thought I was living the Christian life...I never drank or did drugs or had sex or any of that stuff. That's what I thought the Christian life was, but it took me a long time to figure out that that was wrong. I never regularly went to church until the end of my junior year in high school. I had fallen in love with a guy named Matt who had been raised in the church. That was part of the appeal of dating him...I figured since he was a "good Christian guy" that I wouldn't have to worry about him pressuring me for sex or anything...I was wrong. Things got out of hand one night and once we had realized that what we were doing was wrong, I asked him if I could start going to church with him. So I did. I got involved with the youth group and stuff...but I was always known as "Matt's girlfriend" and nothing more. So after Matt and I broke up, I kept going to church for a while but when I realized that I was only half of a couple in everyone's eyes, I stopped going.
The story doesn't really pick up again until I get to college. My freshman year I got just a little wild, but nothing too outrageous. My friend Katie that I mentioned earlier kept telling me I should to to Campus Crusade at WSU, but I never wanted to because I didn't know anyone. So I met her friend Mary that was from Beavercreek who introduced me to her friend Danielle that goes to Crusade at WSU. So I went one day. I met her and her friend Stacy. I started going to Crusade regularly during Winter Quarter of my freshman year. I was still not really walking the Christian walk, but I was going to Crusade, then I decided to go on Spring Break with Crusade to Florida. I shared a room with Danielle, Stacy, and our other friend Drea. Well...I got to know Stacy a bit better and ended up joining the Bible Study that she and Danielle were in. Then drama ensued. Stacy and I shared our concerns for the other too and we gradually got closer as friends. The following year I finally started going to church at Apex and I got super involved in Crusade. I became a Bible study leader, I was on the Media team, I went to Real Life every week, I went to every meeting, every social, etc. etc. I did a lot of growing throughout this time but I eventually got burned out on all the Crusade stuff. On the plus side, my heavy involvement helped me develop some really strong friendships, and Stacy, our friend Anna, and I decided to live together. We couldn't move into our house until the end of summer so in the meantime I needed a place to live. Stacy's parents let me stay with them for the summer which meant the world to me and it still does. Over the summer I dropped in one day during VBS at Bethany. I really enjoyed it, so I decided to go to the Sunday service. Then I kept going and then I decided to join. About that time, we all moved into our house. Put those two things together, and you can bet there was a lot of growing and changing going on. I got very involved at the church and have been ever since. Through the church I gained a family here which has been so wonderful and is so important to me. On top of that, living in this house has been a great learning experiences. It has its ups and downs just like any living relationship, but it has really helped me mature learn how to live on my own.

So anyway...that's a lot of details all to say this. I've seen a lot in my life. I watched my bother get beat by her ex-boyfriend, my dad got sent to prison, fights between my parents which led to one of them leaving, sexual abuse, and so on and so on. One thing I have realized in the last year or so is that God brought me through all that and He did it to glorify himself. So many people tell me that they don't understand how I made it through all that. I didn't make it through all of that, God brought me through it. Every difficult time I've had has been a time of growing, molding, and shaping. I've gotten to a point that I know that when those hard times roll in. Some times the hard times are still just too hard to be joyful about but other times I know that I will come out stronger in the end. So that's my story up till now. There's a lot more that will be added as I go, and I'm looking forward to seeing what God will do with me in the years to come.

God bless!

Pepto

Tune in tomorrow.

Ok, so I promise that I will post my testimony on here, just not tonight. It's been a long day, it's late, and I'm tired. I appreciate y'all praying for the situation with my dad...keep praying but keep it general. I know that doesn't make sense. There's just a lot more going on with the whole thing that I'm not going to get into on here. If you ask me in person, I might tell you, but right now, I really need to go spend some time with God. He's the only person I feel like I can talk to right now and I think that's because He's the only person I should talk to right now. It's been a while since we've really talked. So yeah...I'll "talk" to you all tomorrow.

God bless.

Pepto

WEIRD day

Today has definitely been one of the weirdest days of my life. It started with my running late for class which I almost never do, but when I got to the Creative Arts Center where all of my classes are, there were a bunch of people standing around outside which is rediculous considering how cold it was today. Anyway, I went to head into the building and a cop stopped me and said "the building is closed until further notice." I figured it wouldn't take long so I went to the library to wait...well about half an hour later they closed off the parking lots so I couldn't even walk to my car if I wanted to leave. So we all waited in the library for about 2 hours before they finally reopened the building. By then my class would have been over, so I just left, but on my way through the building I saw a cop so I asked him what happened and he just said that they had to call the bomb squad to come clear the building. So an interesting start to the day to say the least.

After that fiasco, I went home to have lunch and stuff. While I was here I decided to call my dad, but he didn't answer so I left a message. I called him because he had called me the day before and left a message saying that he needed to talk to me about some important stuff and he said something about his death benefits and that my brothers were both signing a waiver to give the money to me. That was not good to hear. Anyway, I finally got to talk to him this afternoon and he told me that his liver is failing and that he needs to have a liver transplant but that it's quite unlikely that they wouldn't be able to do it because he has Krohn's disease. This is not good news. He told me that he doesn't think he's going to survive much longer which is why he's trying to take care of all this stuff with his death benefits through the VA. So needless to say, I lost it. I broke down. Even if it doesn't happen anytime soon, hearing all of this just makes you think...it makes you emotional. In fact I've been so emotional that I don't even know what emotion to show. I've been laughing a lot for the last several hours which is a good thing but at the same time I'm starting to think I've really lost it this time.

Once I regained my composure I went to work. It was normal for the most part until the end of my shift. Some guy came in and said hello and asked me how I was doing and I said I was great with a very sarcastic tone. So I answered his question and he went to grab something but on his way out, he came over behind the front desk and gave me a hug. I've never met this guy in my life, but maybe he just sensed that I needed it or something. It was pretty random and it definitely made my boss laugh. So after that I went to HBM and Elvis's place for CAYAC. It went really well. I just talked about my day and stuff for a while and then we got into our study. We ended up getting into public confession...when it's needed, when it's not...the importance of accountability, why we need confession, etc. etc. It was really good. I was the only one there again which doesn't bother me but we all wish other people would come. We spent some time trying to figure out some good ways to get people to come.

So yeah, that was my really weird day. Please be praying for my dad and all of our family. There's more to the story, but I won't go into all of it. I need to get some sleep so I'll probably be going to bed soon.

God bless.

Pepto

Yay for 3 day weekends!!

I love long weekends. I really wish we could have more than just one every quarter. I had a pretty good weekend. Friday I went to a blugrass gospel music festival at TV Dinner's old church with TV Dinner and Piano Man then we went to the cheap theater to see Hers, Mine and Ours. I liked it, it was a cute movie. Saturday I slept in but when I finally got up I cleaned my room and then went out to buy some art supplies. After I was done shopping, I went to the Dayton Art Institute for a while to get a better look at some of the contemporary art pieces then I went and got Writer and we went to Old Navy so she could exchange some PJs. Yeah...I should have gone...they had a big sale and I ended up buying 3 pairs of pants...but the good news is that it was less than 30 dollars for two pairs of dress paints and a pair of jeans. That deal was just too hard to pass up. Anyway, after that we had dinner at Steak and Shake then I went to PT practice. It was pretty good...and it was pretty long. After that I went to Writer's apartment and we watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman because I just decided to buy it. Probably shouldn't have, but oh well. Then I came home, talked to Internet Boy for a little bit (because he messaged me) and went to bed. The service Sunday was really good...we kinda butchered a couple songs because I just think it was a lot of new songs for one week, but it's ok. Lifesong was great...I love that song...even after playing the chorus 10 times over in rehearsal. At least we knew it well. After the service we had a meeting which was...a meeting, then I came home to grab some stuff and headed for Jeffersonville to have lunch with my mom and some of my aunts, uncles, and cousins. It was good. We're trying to do it every month, but I just don't think it's going to work out very well because 15 people is a lot to try to seat together at a restaurant. Anyway...after that I went to the Cincinnati area with my mom. We stopped at the Eastgate mall to go to Steve and Barry's...great store. I got a Wright State jacket and a sweatshirt and a t-shirt...really nice stuff and everything in the store is 7.98 or less. After that we went to her apartment which is really nice but it's just kinda bare because she doesn't have much furniture yet. Then we went to a comedy club with my cousin Navy. It was a fun night, and I'm sure I'm starting to bore you with all the deatails.

So now I'm back home and I'm about to go get a canvas and some hangers. I have quite a bit to do this evening, but I'm not going to stress out about it too much. I'm gonna have a bit more work to do this week because I'll finally be able to get into the dark room for photography but it's not nearly as bad as Roomiestar's 31 hours of work. Keep her in your prayers, that will be rough. So yeah, I hope you all had a great holiday weekend and that you have a great week. I love y'all!! Peace out.

God bless!

Pepto

Another late night

Ok, so I really need to start going to bed earlier, but tonight I'm just not very tired. Anyway...some ol' same ol' going on in my life. I'm still all caught up in school and I'm actually starting to work a little bit ahead which is a big deal for me. I still haven't even started taking pictures for my photo class yet, but I will be very soon...as soon as I figure out what the heck I'm going to do for my portfolio. Printmaking is going well...it's not nearly as much of a pain as it was when I tried to take it over summer. Painting is going well too...we're almost done with our first in class painting and I'm not way behind this time. I also got positive feedback on my first homework - a painting of the sun rising from the POV of our front yard before they built the condos. Art history is boring...I'm reading ahead but so far the reading hasn't really pertained to anything we've done in class. Work is fine, I'm still really happy to have that job.

As far as the internet boy...yeah nothing really to report there. He messaged me a few days ago and we've talked a few times, but it's usually me that initiates the conversation and we don't really talk about anything significant. There's still possiblities, but I wouldn't count on it.

On the other hand...I went to the first CAYAC small group tonight. I was the only one there, but it was still really good. I hope we can get more people to come and I'm looking forward to seeing it grow. Since I was the only person there I got a lot of personal attention. HBM and Elvis went all "Dr. Phil" on me about why I can't get a date. To make a long story short, I've removed my true love waits ring from my left ring finger and ripped up my list of standards that I want in a guy. I love those two to death. They've been such a blessing in my life as well as many others. I really look up to them a lot. I'm sure I've said that before but there's no harm in saying it again.

So yeah...I've just been hanging out here doing a whole lot of nothing productive. I'm going to try to go to bed soon since I'll be getting up early to get a shower and such. I hope you all have a wonderful Thursday and the rest of the weekend if I don't post before then.

God bless!

Pepto

Late night

Yeah, so I definitely didn't get home from women's group until about 1 am. That's the latest I've ever stayed, but I did get my Art History reading done which was my goal for the evening and I also learned a lot more about some people...quite a bit that I didn't necessarily want to know, but that's ok.

So yeah...all in all, I had a good weekend. Friday I went to dinner at Fox and Hound with Writer and then we went to the movies to see The Producers. It's an odd one, but it was pretty funny, then we went to her apartment and watched a movie. It was great to hang out with her again. We were roommates our sophomore year and we always got along well. It's cool to stay friends with roommates after you move out. She's really the only one that has stuck so far, but I'm sure I'll stay friends with my current roomies after we all leave. Anyway...Saturday I went to Springfield to get some art supplies then I came back to the house and watched Diary of a Mad Black Woman with Homeslice and one of her friends. Roomiestar joined us for a bit but then she took a nap. It was a GREAT movie. I highly recommend it. After that I think I just fell asleep for a while and then headed to Praise Team practice. It was much better this week. The last couple of weeks had been kinda frustrating for me because Christmas week...those songs just seemed impossible to play and then last week we had practice on New Year's Eve which kinda stunk, but oh well. Anyway, it was good, then I was chattin with HBM for a while afterwards about stuff...and I ended up going to Applebee's with her and Elvis. It was good, we talked about the church and the college age small group that's starting this week and internet boy and school, etc. etc. Then I came home and talked to Blue Jacket for a while. It's really been great spending time with so many different people and talking to them. I hope it continues.

Anyway, the service today was pretty good. I thought the worship was good even though I couldn't hear out of my left ear for a little while. I had some clog thing going on, and it was pretty disorienting since your hearing is what helps with your balance. So if I seemed kinda grouchy this morning, that's why. After church, I went to Cracker Barrel with Homeslice which was good...good food and we got to talk. Then I went to campus to stretch a canvas then I came home and took a nap then I got up and went to the Crucible with Blue Jacket which was really good...I'm excited about some of the stuff we'll be talking about in the coming weeks. Then I brought Blue Jacket home and went to Women's group. I just want to say that I love those ladies...y'all know who you are. It's great to spend time with you and just listen to you talk and get to know you better. So yeah...now I'm home I didn't really talk to the internet boy...I said hello and then he said he was going to bed so we exchanged goodnights and he signed off. I'll still keep you posted on what's going on there.

Ok, yeah, so I'm gonna do some reading, maybe a little personal journaling and then I'm going to sleep. I have an 8:30 class (bleh), so I need to get some rest. I'm keeping y'all in my prayers.

God bless!

Pepto

Life is good

Yeah, so a lot has happened in the last few days, and I thought it was high time I let you all in on the fun. First of all, there's the obvious...Winter quarter started this week. It's definitely going to be a really tough quarter...a seemingly impossible quarter, but something I've discovered about myself is that when I have a task in front of me that seems insurmountable, that's when I usually get really determined and get the job done and get it done right. So I'm confident that I'll do well this quarter. I've actually felt inspired in the last couple of days, but I'll get back to that later.

I've been spending a lot of time with people that I haven't spent time with in a while. I've been hanging out with Homeslice and Blue Jacket a lot at the house in the evenings. It's been fun, we've done a lot of laughing and acting stupid. I had lunch with TV Dinner today, and I got to talk to my old roommate who I shall call Writer this evening and we're probably going to go do something tomorrow night. I still miss spending so much time with Roomiestar, but I know she needs to spend time with her PC. I'm sure we'll find sometime to hang out eventually, but it will be hard because we're both REALLY busy. So yeah...revisiting old frienships rocks.

Now to the meat and potatoes of this entry. In my last update I told you all about the Curly situation...well I can tell you that he still has yet to call and I had decided to give him until Friday which is tomorrow, but it's pretty much a done deal already. To be honest, it is not bothering me one bit, and I will tell you why. Tuesday evening I was sitting in the living room with Homeslice and Blue Jacket while I was on my laptop. I randomly decided to get on a Christian dating site called www.christianmingle.com. It was kinda just for kicks and giggles, but after I filled out my profile and what not, I got this IM through the website from this guy from West Chester, OH. I had already viewed his profile and selected him as a favorite. Well, the IM thing on the website wasn't working on my computer, so I IMed him on AIM because he gave his screen name on his profile. We ended up talking for about an hour about school, graduating, and also about Wild at Heart and Captivating. He said that he has read Wild at Heart a couple of times and wanted to read Captivating. I told him that I had read Captivating a couple of times and wanted to read Wild at Heart. So we talked about that for a little while, and that was good. Let me point out that he still had not seen my picture or anything at this point, so he wanted to talk to me just based on what I had said in my profile. Anyway...his AIM profile had a link to his blog in it, so I started reading it and just kept on reading...I went all the way back to July. This guy is amazing. He went to Ukraine over the summer to work with orphans and such, he went to Louisiana for Hurricane Relief, he drove over 2 hours to give roses and coffee to his now ex-girlfriend, and he tries very hard to keep his focus on God.

So yeah...I talked to him briefly earlier today and then I talked to him again tonight. I love talking to him, there are a few awkward 'silences' but for the most part we just chat. So that's what's been going on. I don't know if anything will come of this. I hope so. I would really like to meet this guy, but if nothing happens, at least it got my mind off the whole Curly situation. I still don't know what happened there.

Well, I should finally get to bed. It's almost 2 am.

God bless!

Pepto

Happy New Year ladies!

Ok, so I figured since everyone else has updated in the last couple days, maybe I should too. I haven't updated for a few days because I haven't had much positive to share. As some of you may have read in Mac and Cheese's journal, I went out to dinner with Roomiestar, PC, and Bowler. Which was really good because things had been kinda rough that week, so I was really glad to be able to hang out with Roomiestar and PC again. As far as Bowler whom I shall now call Curly from now on...it was just awkward. I had been realizing over the last week or so that I have really developed an interest in him. Why? I'm not totally sure because he seems all wrong for me in a lot of ways, but at the same time, there's just something about him. Well, anyway...I was nervous being around him so I was really quiet and reserved and not quite myself. After dinner we all went to Old Navy then to Barnes and Noble, then Curly had to go home and go to bed because he had to work early in the morning. So Roomiestar, PC, and I came back to the house and played Scrabble. Before we started playing, I was talking to PC about some stuff and he eventually got it out of me that I haven't been able to stop thinking about Curly. Well...he soon told me that Curly was going to stop by the house the previous day and ask me out to lunch, but couldn't because he was on his motorcycle (yes, he has one) and it had started raining. So I was on cloud 9 for a while. I joked around about going to see him at work the next day on base even though I have no reason to go through the gate he was working. So PC came up with the idea that "I" would take him lunch...meaning I would pay for it and hand it to him but all of us would be going out there. So we did just that. On the way I was getting really nervous and PC just told me to be myself, relax, and tell him to call me. So I didn't do any of that. Then as we were driving away, PC told me that I failed, because he had talked to Curly and Curly had said that if I asked him to call me that he would do so. SO, I decided to go back. Which I did, and PC suggested that I write my number down and hand it to him so I would be officially giving him my number. At this point, he had made it out to be a sure thing, so I was really excited and feeling a lot bolder than usual. So I did it. The conversation was really awkward and I felt like an idiot the split second I drove away.

Now...this is where I would like to say that I went home and he called a couple hours later and we hung out. Unfortunately, I can't say that because he still hasn't called. So yeah...that was REALLY disappointing. I talked to PC today, however, and PC said that Curly has been sick all weekend and simultaneously busy with work. Still not enough reason for me to call him, but I'm still giving him a chance to call me. If he doesn't, then oh well. I'll get on with my life. If he does, then who knows. One thing is for sure...IF anything were to ever happen between us, he's going to have to do a little fightin for my heart. So yeah...that's what's been going on. My New Year's really was pretty crappy, but life goes on. My New Year's Day was pretty decent though. Once I got past the depression resulting from the rejection, I ended up having a lot of fun with Roomiestar, PC, Banana, Scuba, Ruby Tuesday, and Burrito Man (I may think of better names for them later). We played games and just hung out for a while then we went to Fox and Hound for dinner (service wasn't so great, but the food was delicious) then we came back here and had some ice cream and played never have I ever.

So yeah...if anything happens with the Curly situation, I'll let you know, but don't hold your breath on it. It's gettin late, so I'll probably be hitting the hay soon. I hope you all have a wonderful year in 2006!

God bless!

Pepto